I owe everyone an update don’t I. Wow, I can’t believe it is already January 27th. Time really does fly by which is why I have decided to make some changes.
Determination…...balance…..peace….happiness. These are some of my key words for the year. Last year I committed to racing an ironman triathlon. For various reasons I ended up racing a half ironman distance triathlon. Huge! I am proud of my accomplishment. Do I want to do another one? You bet ya, but I don’t think I want to this year. This year I need to recommit to myself. And my first priority is losing the weight I have seemed to put back on.
I’m not new to the weight loss journey. The first time I lost weight was back in 1995. I fell in love with lifting heavy weights. I dabbled in power lifting and even competed in a body building contest. No matter what is going on in my life, I always fall back to fitness of some sort. Fast forward 12 years two babies, life in general and I found myself over the 200 pound mark. In 2007, I decided enough was enough. Joined the Biggest Loser website, met a wonderful group of ladies and within a year lost 50 pounds, pre-first baby weight. Then I screwed up. Something that I won’t talk about on here but it was life altering. Yep, we make mistakes but this one spiraled me into a battle that I have been fighting for the past four years. I have gained almost all of my weight back. I’m 15 pounds shy of where I started in April of 2007. I have been lost. It is very frustrating to be back there again when I swore I would never be. So frustrating that I don't even know where to start at times. Overwhelmed is an understatement.
So instead of training for the next big race, aka: Ironman, I’m training for me. I’m training on several levels both spiritually, physically and emotionally. Because let’s face it one doesn’t exist without the other. They all belong together because you are you or I am me. I’ve been having some aha moments; most are coming slowing….but they are coming. One huge decision I have made is that I’m going to lose my weight that I have gained back plus some. I know we hear this all too often from people that gain and lose. I’m not going to say “no really this time I mean it”. No, I don’t know if I will do that at the moment and that is the truth. I can’t say I won’t eat this or that because I at this moment I can’t. No, I’m taking it one minute at a time at the moment. Even a day seems overwhelming at times.
We don’t typically see triathletes or any athlete confess a huge weight gain. No we wouldn’t see them again until they were back to their prior racing form. But I feel I had to get out in the open that Yes, I’ve gained weight. Yes it sucks! Yes I will fight this once again.
Another decision I have made is that I’m not going to do Redman this year, well at least not the full or half ironman distance. This year I’m volunteering at it and will do the Olympic distance instead that will be held on Sunday. That will be my “A” race for the year. But towards the end of the year I hope to run a full marathon for my friend battling Ovarian Cancer. We shall see…..
Anyways, things have been going well. I’m back in the gym lifting consistently for about a month or two now. What pushed me over the edge to get back to it, various reasons but mainly my BFF! She texted me one day out of the blue and asked if I would work out with her if she joined the Y. I had been “playing” back in the gym for a few weeks but having a scheduled time on my calendar has helped tremendously. Now if I can just get my “cardio” (running/biking/swimming) back in the groove I would be in there. And of course if I could reign in my eating that would be even better. But one minute at a time……….
Friday, January 27, 2012
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Sitting on the edge of the fence......
Wow, I’m a total slacker! No not really, I mean I am a slacker in a lot of ways but who isn’t? Anyways, things have been going well. I’m back in the gym lifting consistently for about a month now. What pushed me over the edge to get back to it, various reason but mainly my BFF! She texted me one day out of the blue and asked if I would work out with her if she joined the Y. I had been “playing” back in the gym for a few weeks but having a scheduled time on my calendar has helped tremendously. And today, hold your britches, I went swimming. Yes that is right boys and gals; I actually got back in the pool for the first time since Redman. It wasn’t pretty, I have a lot of “ketchup” to do but it wasn’t bad. And don’t tell hubby this; I’m actually glad he pushed me out of bed this morning (literally).
So I’ve got the weight training down, it doesn’t take me long to get back into the groove. I just know need to figure out the rest of the mumbo jumbo, like training and what races to do. As some of you know may or may not know, I’m committing myself to 18 races next year. My friend who has been diagnosed with ovarian cancer has 18 weeks of chemo. She is doing well and hopefully she will be able to join us towards the end of the year or as she feels up to it. Her daughter is going to be right along side of me, running anything from 5K to half marathons and we are ending it with a full marathon. So the question comes do I du/tri or not? Luckily our Tri club does relays so why not? I’ve never done any of our events as a team, she is game to do the running portion, I on my trusty stead, so now we have to find a swimmer, and it will be fun. Redman……. this next year Redman is a Half Max Championship so no teams. Do I do Redman (half) or do the international distance the next day? Or skip it? This of course opens a whole other can of worms regarding the family and training for Redman once again.
So as you can see a lot of decisions need to be made. Do some need to be made now? No, I have nine months until Redman, 7 months until registration prices go up (not making that mistake again) and about 4 months until I would truly need to decide in order to start proper training. I have goals in my mind that have to do with my level of fitness, health, weight etc…..Plus I’m just not sure about the time. I’m on the fence.
It is funny how I don’t even blink an eye any more to sprint/olympic distance training or even to a half marathon. Must be something about all those hours I put in this year……
So I’ve got the weight training down, it doesn’t take me long to get back into the groove. I just know need to figure out the rest of the mumbo jumbo, like training and what races to do. As some of you know may or may not know, I’m committing myself to 18 races next year. My friend who has been diagnosed with ovarian cancer has 18 weeks of chemo. She is doing well and hopefully she will be able to join us towards the end of the year or as she feels up to it. Her daughter is going to be right along side of me, running anything from 5K to half marathons and we are ending it with a full marathon. So the question comes do I du/tri or not? Luckily our Tri club does relays so why not? I’ve never done any of our events as a team, she is game to do the running portion, I on my trusty stead, so now we have to find a swimmer, and it will be fun. Redman……. this next year Redman is a Half Max Championship so no teams. Do I do Redman (half) or do the international distance the next day? Or skip it? This of course opens a whole other can of worms regarding the family and training for Redman once again.
So as you can see a lot of decisions need to be made. Do some need to be made now? No, I have nine months until Redman, 7 months until registration prices go up (not making that mistake again) and about 4 months until I would truly need to decide in order to start proper training. I have goals in my mind that have to do with my level of fitness, health, weight etc…..Plus I’m just not sure about the time. I’m on the fence.
It is funny how I don’t even blink an eye any more to sprint/olympic distance training or even to a half marathon. Must be something about all those hours I put in this year……
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
A tale of two square pants - repost
I came across this post that I did last year on another site.....I thought it is a good reminder to me.....
It is funny how a particular square can make you feel. How it can set the mood you are going to be in for the day. How it is one of the first things you see in the morning when you go into the bathroom. It sits propped up in the corner or on the wall waiting, lurking like sponge waiting to absorb every ounce of spirit, of inspiration or encouragement from you. It is Mr. Scale Square Pants. I stepped on Mr. SSP today only to find that he wanted to suck every ounce of “I can conquer the world” attitude from me. But I didn’t let him, I screamed back, “You’ve got to be freakin’ kidding me, really? I ran 6 miles yesterday. I worked out 5 of the last seven days Mr. SSP you should be grateful to me! Really?”
I’ve gone about my morning trying to not let Mr. SSP weigh me down (LOL!) saying you are tracking your food, you are in a forward momentum again, blah, blah, blah. Then as I was re-vamping my training schedule for the next month in preparations of my first ½ marathon in November, I thought to myself, well how many miles did you put in for September? Instead of an aha moment, I had a duh moment. I get it, Mr. SSP, you are in cohorts with Mr. Tracker that only shows me putting in 887 minutes for September. You highlighted some good days, are you ready for this, 20 miles of running, 50 miles biking, 2 spin class, 1 boot camp class, several yoga days, 3-4 ST days and a few walking periods. Duh, duh, duh! Yeah, I greatly appreciate you two drilling your point home even further. I bet you two are texting each other right now, getting your jollys, at least you aren’t posting it to U-Tube.
So let me tell ya’ll something Mr. SSP and Mr. Tracker, I’m not going to let ya’ll win. I’m not going to let ya’ll ruin my day or my week. I’m not going to let ya’ll throw me into some bottomless pit to wallow in my misery, to completely throw me on a downward spiral of devastation. Oh, no! You better bet your square little bottoms that I’m fighting back with a vengeance! I’ll show you both what I’m made of! I’ll teach ya’ll to mess with me!
It is funny how a particular square can make you feel. How it can set the mood you are going to be in for the day. How it is one of the first things you see in the morning when you go into the bathroom. It sits propped up in the corner or on the wall waiting, lurking like sponge waiting to absorb every ounce of spirit, of inspiration or encouragement from you. It is Mr. Scale Square Pants. I stepped on Mr. SSP today only to find that he wanted to suck every ounce of “I can conquer the world” attitude from me. But I didn’t let him, I screamed back, “You’ve got to be freakin’ kidding me, really? I ran 6 miles yesterday. I worked out 5 of the last seven days Mr. SSP you should be grateful to me! Really?”
I’ve gone about my morning trying to not let Mr. SSP weigh me down (LOL!) saying you are tracking your food, you are in a forward momentum again, blah, blah, blah. Then as I was re-vamping my training schedule for the next month in preparations of my first ½ marathon in November, I thought to myself, well how many miles did you put in for September? Instead of an aha moment, I had a duh moment. I get it, Mr. SSP, you are in cohorts with Mr. Tracker that only shows me putting in 887 minutes for September. You highlighted some good days, are you ready for this, 20 miles of running, 50 miles biking, 2 spin class, 1 boot camp class, several yoga days, 3-4 ST days and a few walking periods. Duh, duh, duh! Yeah, I greatly appreciate you two drilling your point home even further. I bet you two are texting each other right now, getting your jollys, at least you aren’t posting it to U-Tube.
So let me tell ya’ll something Mr. SSP and Mr. Tracker, I’m not going to let ya’ll win. I’m not going to let ya’ll ruin my day or my week. I’m not going to let ya’ll throw me into some bottomless pit to wallow in my misery, to completely throw me on a downward spiral of devastation. Oh, no! You better bet your square little bottoms that I’m fighting back with a vengeance! I’ll show you both what I’m made of! I’ll teach ya’ll to mess with me!
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